Hello Diary

For long, i had wanted to do this. I mean having a blog where i can just pour out my heart the exact way i feel when i need to. Thank God i finally set it up today. Here, i will share my very deep thoughts when there is no one to talk to and yet i need to talk.

I have had a real troubled life and past through some tough situations. These makes me so sad and broken at times. Some of those times there is really no one to share my pain with. No one to listen to my heart's cry, and i feel God is so far away.

There is a lot to say to you diary. I'll say it the exact way i feel. For now, i have to go get some sleep. It's been a long day, blessed day. I thank God for His mercies for today.

I am so depressed

I am so so depressed. I am not alright at all. I'm lonely. Noone to talk to. Noone even wants to listen. I have no listening ear. The only one i can talk to is God. I know He listens, just that i wonder if i will ever get an answer.

Someone who wants me to believe he is a friend was supposed to call me last night so we talk about some issues. He got a hint of something i had faced before now and he acted like he cared. But when the meeting was over, he didnt even want to say hi to me.

Why doesnt no one care? Why, why, why? No one knows what i go through. I am so lonely, all i need is a friend, a true friend. I also need someone to love me. Will i ever find love? At this stage of my life? Will i?

So many questions on my mind, but no answer. God please help me. Do not forsake me. I am lonely and depressed. I am so alone. Please help me......